Friday, November 30, 2007

Overcome

.....I am overcome this morning with thankfulness of what the Lord has done in my life. Growing up I had all the same dreams any little girl would have.. Husband, home, children... house with white picket fence....... Lace and ruffles and all things sweet......... Life gets in the way of dreams and life will swallow you up and spit you out.

.....Divorce was not in my vocabulary nor my thoughts.. I am sure if you asked anyone that knew the ravages of divorce they would tell you that they did not ever imagine that would happen to them. However it does...
.... The woman at the well is my most treasured gift in the word of God. She is the perfect example of a life gone wrong and of the Grace that is handed out to all those that will receive.

....Jesus was a busy man but He was always in tune with the Holy Spirit and on that day He knew that there was a woman, seeped in despair headed to a well. She would draw water that day but the water she would receive would change her life and she would thirst no more.
......Jesus came to save the lost and the undone........ This story is a story of forgivness and mercy in a world void of any compassion. They only knew the law and the law cast her out. He brought grace and forgivness and took her in.........

...I cry when I see the transformation of a broken heart to a heart of hope. She was broken and undone and I am sure that each morning brought with it another day of hoplessness. The sun did arise on that day but in its rising brought with it new life where there was only guilt and shame.
.... I have hung my head in shame and disgrace... I have opened my eyes on mornings that life was just too hard to bear.... I have wandered alone in my darkness not knowing whether to turn right or left.......... I have shook my fist in the face of the law of religion and asked why? I have lived the life of the woman at the well...........
..... I have cried until I could cry no more........ and now this morning I am overwhelmed with the goodness of my Father God and I cry........... not because I am broken but I cry that because on September 10, 1977 I met a man at the well of my despair and He did not repair my heart, He made it new......... I used to cry because I was broken, now I cry because He made me whole.


Thursday, November 29, 2007

Dont Be a Baby

......When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 1 Corinthians 13:11

.... it is strange but I do not remember much of my childhood... What little bits and pieces there are are good ones.. I had two brothers that I grew up with and some of my most favorite memories are of the three of us. One memory is playing King of the Hill. We would all run toward the railroad tressel in the back of Grandma's house and up on the tracks we would go. The tracks cross the blue river that ran through the little town of Roff Oklahoma. It was there that we would laugh and holler and push each other off of that railroad tressel mound until only one of us remained. I could not tell you how many times I won or lost but just that I remember those days so well. Of course as we grew older and went our separate ways only to reunite on Thanksgiving and Christmas, no longer did we three break away to claim victory over that old hill. We were grown and childish things were in the past. Those memories serve me well and they always bring a smile to my face.....
.....In my Christian life it is no different. I remember the younger years of my walk with the Lord and how I thought I had arrived. I was full of myself and was going to save the world. Little did I know that arrived I had not. I did not know squat but I would have told you that I did. I look back on my life and that journey that started out 30 years ago and those memories always bring a smile to my face. Little did I know that my journey would take me through dark places that only the Grace of God could keep me. It was in the darkness that I learned to see the unseen. It was in the dark places that the still small voice was the only thing heard. It was in those times that life was hard and I would rather have gone on to see Jesus that I learned how to live. It was in the darkness that I grew to be out of the carnal and into faith.
......... today there are things that I have let go of....childish things that hindered me... Things that have hung onto my flesh for so many years that need be discarded. Is it not a wonderful thing that as we grow and mature in the Lord, He always takes us to a place that reveals the hidden things in our lives and it is there that we grow.......My prayer today is that the Lord continue to inspect my heart and reveal the things that need to be revealed so that I might come into His fullness and reproduce like kind..........


Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Leave Things Alone

........ I am such a creature of habit... I move my furniture, I rearrange my my kitchen cabinets. I sort and clean and fix but never get anything done. Being a graphic artist that is just my nature. The Lord has been showing me some things about this and what He says makes sense. Duh!
...My life was out of control for so many years with the divorce's, the abuse, the failures. Sorting and cleaning and rearranging was just my way of being in control of something. Makes sense to me.
....However, my life for the past 8 years has been so wonderful. When the Father gave me Dennis it set me free and I have no need of being in control. I like that. Gives me room to be me, BUT it is hard to loose that habit, hard to just be me but I am learning.
...I said all that to say this, that is reflected in my blog......... I love to change things, but I have so much to say and I need to get on with what God has appointed me to do, so I will leave this blog alone and get one with my writing. After all, it is the spirit of the words that I type and not its beauty where the anointing lies.............
........ but! do you like this new look? ahahahhahhah

Be blessed


Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Save My Widgets

....Good morning ... I am going to change my blog back to the two column sometime today .. I have tried and tried to get my Samaritan Woman back at the top of this page to no avail... sooooo if anyone knows of a good three column site to find layouts or a good two column site I would appreciate knowing... this site is so limited on the layouts you can choose.. sooooooooo just send me email if know know of any good sites with blog layouts... I have search around a lot but have not really found much... Just send email or just leave comment... This time I am going to save my widgets................

Blessings to you.................